Hi - we lost my dad on the 3rd January. He had been on chemo since September for the return of his lung cancer and was coping well. He walked into A&E with a temperature in mid December and they even thought he might be able to go home wth antibiotics but then his breathing deteriorated and was on 30, then 40 then 100% oxygen. Eventually we were told he had pneumonitis which is a rare infection caused by the chemo. I'm just so very angry and upset that he has lost out on his life - he was 76 but so full of life and well apart from the cancer. He and my mum were due to move into a cottage behind our house so we could help them more and he was full of plans of what they'd do when here. My mum is staying with us now and we'll have to sort the move soon but everything just seems so pointless and joyless. We have a lovely 12 year old daughter and I'm so short tempered with her and everyone around me as just miss my dad so much and can't accept that I'llnever see him again. How can I cope with everything?
