Hi all you lovely folk who have and are still suffering or struggling , I appear to be be doing no both at present , after initial being very brave I think I'm now realising that I've been to hell and back and more. It's been over 3 months now since surgery which was the 9 th September

partial tongue removal and lymph nodes from left side of neck.  Cancer gone thank god and no more treatment needed , but my recovery is and has been hell.  My salvia gland leaked causing me so much grief.  My shoulder is agony leaving my left shoulder colder bone arm left hand tingling and hellish pain , awaiting physio , my neck very sore and stiff still.  Excerscising 3 times daily , n

my Gp wants me to go back to work , ima health care with complex kids 37 years service I love my job , but after trying to tall y Gp that I'm physically not able to do my job , it's not really what she wants to hear and after a discussion where I had to really say please do not make me go back , she finally agreed to give me another month off and said she will ring me 16 Dec to discuss  is me going back , work are fine Hr And wellbeing are ok and I i understand they have policies and have to follow them , I'm so frightened that

t my Gp makes me go back and I cannot do my job , and let my team down , my life has changed so much and I'm so pleased the cancer gone and I'm in recovery.  But I just cannot seem to be my normal self.  I have a few good days then a bloody awful day , my hubby thinks I'm moody and miserable , I just wish he could have a day in my shoes , I'm up beat most of the time , I've put tree up and got into my festivities started to have granchuldren for few hours with hubby or son with me , but I feel that will never ever be the happy go lucky person I was , is this normal.  McMillan nurses I know are there but if I ring usual an answer machine , and to be honest , I just wish there was groups more local as I'm not a car driver and to go to the McMillan centre it's 2 buses and a 2 hour journey there , and just have not got the energy.  Is it me or am I just trying to hard at minute , all advice would be great thank you xxxxx