Hi I ve been delt a rough hand and was hoping for some advice. I was dianosed with stage 4 Testical cancer in october last year. I had the amazing support of my partner and her family as well as friends. I had to have surgery followed by BEP chemotherapy which I found was rough but my girlfriend was there all the way.  It was later found that I needed further surgery a rnlpd to remove a mass by my arota. While waiting for for my surgery sadly my mum passed away and it effected me but I still tried to keep a brave face on things. We both decided that we had our happy little family my 2 step kids and my own little girl so frezzing sperm wasnt needed and we were together for the long haul. My results came back good the chemo and surgery had done the job and I was clear 4 weeks after my surgery she decided that she didnt want to be with me and told me to leave so I lost my home, I wasnt allowed to see the step kids and she basically deleted me from her life all the photos were gone she sold most of the things I got her. I tried so hard to get her back but it was no good. She said I wasnt the man she wanted I was moody and selfish which I was but I was depressed and sufered badly with anxitey. When I was diagnosed I gave her the choice and said it would be a very hard journey but she was sure that we could get though anything saying we would be together always and forever. Im now living at friends with nothing and she doesnt even actknowledge me. I fully understand that cancer and the loss of my mum changed me from what she met at the start but there has been so much loss that I find things unbearable. Any advice of how I can move on or support would be great. Biggest problem I have I still love the girl. Ive just found out aswell that a friend who helped me though my cancer died today from his own battle with cancer and im at rock bottom.

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