Welcome to Cancer Chat community Macasa although I'm very sorry for your loss.

It's completely understandable that your emotions are running high with the first anniversary coming up but you're not alone as our members have been through this and I'm sure you'll receive some support from them soon.

In the meantime, be kind to yourself, allow yourself to grieve and remember that every tear shed shows just how strong the love between you was.

Kind regards, 

Steph, Cancer Chat Moderator

Hi Macasa, 

Sorry for your loss. The grieve is a process that is not equal for everybody. Feeling sad is not a signal of weakness but a signal of being human...sometimes we just create this beliefs based on what we hear, like "if we don't cry we are strong ".

It's completely understandable you are feeling sad. When sadness happen our energy goes down, it's a survival strategy to gives us time to process the new reality...sometimes we try to use other strategies like avoidance, but some dates are triggers which not allow us to avoid or deny. It's not easy to be sad but we should give us time and allow us to being down and understand what that cry means.

Moreover, it seems to me that you received too much and inexpected information suddenly...

In case of you are feeling so sad that you are not capable of doing your routine, sleep or distract yourself ,the best approach may be look for a psychologist or a grieving group.

Take Care, S.