Hi Nicoolar, 

I'm sorry to hear that you lost such an important person in your life to cancer. It really is a cruel disease and I'm sure that many people here will also have struggled with finding some sort of understanding of their losses. 

Sometimes we never get over the loss of loosing someone, we just learn to live with a "new normal". It doesn't mean that we forget them or that we're not allowed to feel sad but being able to remember all those good times and the laughter you shared is also important. 

I don't know if you had any support or counselling after your friend passed away Nicoolar. If you think that it might help to process some of your thoughts and feelings then it's not too late to look in to that. You can find some information with links to organisations that offer support on our website here. 

Sending best wishes, 
Jenn
Cancer Chat moderator