Hi, I am now one year post ACC diagnosis and am finding my fears of it returning overwhelming. Last August I had a neck dissection to remove  my left salivary gland and nodes. I then had 33 days of radiotherapy as they couldn’t get clear margins. I’m now having six monthly checks with the oncologist but these just seem to involve him prodding my neck and asking if I feel ok.... is this usual? When I asked when I’d be scanned again he said that it wasn’t hospital policy to scan unless they felt something. I’m sorry to be so down but I’m so scared all the time it’s affecting every part of my life. I cried at work the other day.... for no reason other than a sudden rush of panic. I feel I can’t  plan ahead in case things have to be cancelled which is irritating my lovely husband, this on top of struggling to get insurance. I am struggling to sleep, hence my 4am post and I’m not sure that any of this will change. Do you know if there is any counselling available and how to access it?