A warm welcome to the forum Wohn_Jick.

I'm really glad to read that you're in remission although I'm sorry to see that you've been suffering from extreme anxiety and depression over the last few months.

Many cancer survivors have found themselves in similar situations after their journeys have ended and I'm sure some of them will pop by soon to offer their support and advice. If you haven't done so already do speak to your GP about what you are going through at the moment, especially as you're experiencing suicidal thoughts on a daily basis, as they will be able to help with this as well as the issues you're experiencing with your stomach and bowels.

Samaritans are just a phone call away as well if you need them. They're available 24 hours a day, 7 days a week on 116 123 so do give them a ring if you ever find yourself going through a really rough patch as they will do all that they can to help.

We have some general information about financial support and money matters on our website so do have a look when you can as you may find something that could help you at this moment in time. Macmillan have financial advisors you can chat to so it may be worth getting in touch with them to see if they can help with your situation as well.

Do keep chatting to us here on the forum Wohn_Jick as there will always be someone here to listen and remind you that you're not alone.

Kind regards, 

Steph, Cancer Chat Moderator

Thank you so much Steph :)

I think having a forum like this to talk to people in the exact same position is amazing, most people cannot usually relate but I know all replies on here are genuine and thoughfull. Thank you for the kind welcome I really appreciate it and hope I can also shed some light for some people that may be unsure or worried.

I have spoken to my GP a little bit but it is the hardest thing to speak about for some reason I just cannot get my words out when I need to it feels like most of the time. I got a little procedure coming up so so hopefully that will explain why I am still getting so ill but it will be my first biopsy and I cannot lie I am actually bricking it, I am just so worried about taking the fluid stuff the day before really worried with my condition it might be painfull espcially if I have to empty my bowel.

hey, i cant relate on ur physical issues but the mental side sounds very familiar. i was 17 when i got diagnosed and although i was emotional i feel like i actually dealt with my treatment well. but since finishing treatment its like everything i should have felt during chemo hit me all together at once. im having panic attacks regularly, and although i should feel happier, im sadder than i have ever been and my self esteem is at an all time low. im not sure how im going to get through this but i know i will, and u will too. u are not alone in what ur feeling. please remember that.