I lost my mum on the 4th of December this year, and we had her furenal yesterday, her birthday was on the 7th.

It has hit me now and I can't cope with the pain or not being able to see or call her, 

I'm very low and have no partner or children, so staying in bed is easy.

I don't see the point in living as she has gone, the only time the pain goes is when I get to sleep then when I wake it all comes rushing back.

I worry about my dad but he said he will be fine, we are both feeling the same,our relationship with our father isn't as close ,we don't hug or kiss goodbye, but I have started to hug him.

My siblings aren't close to me but they seem to be coping better or just braver than me as they have children as a copying mechanism. 

My heart is broken and has changed me for ever,will the pain pass? 

To all who are going through the same, I'm so sorry