My dad passed on January 22nd, 3 days after my birthday. I am now 17 years of age, I'm not coping great, my anger has gotten to me and I used to be short tempered and I'm even worse, my sister says a little joke and I snap, just like that. I go out like normal, I love hanging around with friends and cousins, but when I get home all of a sudden I feel a black cloud is weighing me down and I just hate being home unless it's in my room playing video games, I've tried counselling but its useless, done it for a few months now but not one bit of help. I failed everything in GCSEs and my first year of College. I'm really not coping and I hate getting emotional in front of my mum because it hurts. I want a day where I love my family and have fun with them for just one day without me getting angry. One little thing can ruin my whole day, I've heard it all. "Block the haters" or "don't listen to them" but I can't, I feel even more depressed and I just really want a week away from home and internet and just have fun but we can't afford it, I don't know what I want from this post but thanks for listening, whoever it is.
Sorry if this was long, bye.
