Havent been on here since my first post , But life after is tough A yr Yesterday I went into hospital and had Laparoscopic my left Kidney removed , Now life after is getting me down , Still suffering from back trouble , on tender edge all the time , Even though it was a yr ago , I go for my second scan since op tomorrow , And going to be on tender edge for the next couple of months , I did have a appointment to see the consultant for results in May , Then it got Canceled to June , Now third time lucky all being well see him in July for results , But in the mean time I have been back and forwards to the dr,s regarding my back , He set me for a Xray the other week now it a waiting game for results for that , been told it can take up to 3 weeks and its only been a few days , Also had to have a blood test , should really phone for results , But then I see it if anything is wrong , They will phone me , Anxiety is getting me down , All I do most nights is cry myself to sleep , Until I had my op I never suffered with Panic Attacks , Suffered with depression , and Anxiety , But Not panic Attacks , Getting a few of them lately , . 

Thank U for taking time out to read this , my head is all over the place , 

Take care All xx