Hi sarah 

first off am so happy for you that you have found out that everything has worked out. 

I felt the exact same I was diagnosed with NHL and while I was going through treatment I lost control of so much in my life but when the treatment finished and I could finally regain some level of control I think I felt it was a case of waiting for it all to go out of control again though something good happens your still waiting for the bad and the other shoe to drop. 

It was just a phase for me I went to speak with a counsellor and believe it or not I found feeding the ducks worked you can throw the bread as hard as you want and that didn't care but when I was angry or upset about what I was going through it helped me get it outx

Xx