Hi. It s completely normal. Your body has been through so much. At the time we don t realise it because we re too busy putting our all into fighting this vile disease! Then, in the later stages, after treatment, we have more time to think about it and it hits you like a ton of bricks! You ve come to the right place, with lots of people in the same position to chat to. Wishing you all the best. Regards, Sue :)  

Thanks Sue,

I have been reading a lot of people's posts and that has really helped. Also helped to share my feelings too. 

Hi Vincent

You are not alone, everyone who has ever had cancer will experience this dread. And the time leading up to the visit for your checkup increases this anxiety. Like you I'm nearly 2 years on, but unfortunately a few months ago I did have a recurrence which I've been treated for. Now that worry has increased again. If you can't deal with it and it is ruining your life, talk to your GP, or oncologist. See if you can be referred for Cognitive Behavioural Therapy. It can help you to get on with your life. Just talking here can help too. Kim

Vincent, I can relate to much of what you say and have posted elsewhere on this site in a similar vein. I don't worry so much about cancer returning, although I do think about it. I worry more about never being the old 'me' again. Try googling 'After the Treatment Finishes' by Peter Harvey. I have found it helpful in reassuring me that whatever we are going through is normal and understandable. Hope this helps.