I've recently finished treatment for breast cancer, lumpectomy followed by radiotherapy.  I'm taking tamoxifen for the next 5 years.  So, trying to feel ok that I've come this far although it wasn't an easy journey.  However, I'm feeling extremely low and very anxious.  Doc has upped my Propranolol intake.  I recognise I am somewhat depressed.  Other factors are contributing.  I lost my Mum recently and certain things I thought I had learnt to deal with from years ago, have suddenly reared their ugly heads again.  I feel overwhelmed by everything if truth be known.  Family and friends try to help but I hold back as I don't want to bring them down.  Just want to wake up in the morning feeling like the old me but I realise she has gone.  Well, a part of her is missing.  I realise I'm still in a bit of shock but I really do not know how to deal with my feelings.  Any advice would be appreciated.  Thank you.