Hi Yasmin, I am so sorry to hear about your husband's sudden and untimely death from this terrible disease. You are still in shock, so not much wonder you are so heartbroken and have so many things running through your mind. Certainly, your husband was too young to be taken from you, and at a time in your lives when you likely had plans for his retirement, etc. I wish there was something I could say to help with your pain of losing him. Allow yourself time to come to terms with what's happened and try not to let your mind race too far ahead. Be kind to yourself and allow others to take care of you until you are again able to take care of yourself.

There are other people here on the forum who have lost their spouse also, and I'm sure someone will be along shortly to respond to your post. You will find people on here are very caring and supportive and you will get help here. Take care and come back here anytime and post your feelings,, regardless of what they are and believe me, it does  help to write them down.

Sending you hugs.

Lorraine