Hi Tracy, I think you're no different than most people who have had a diagnosis of cancer. Once you have that experience, it raises an awareness that never fully leaves you, even if you've been cancer free for several years, or even never get another diagnosis. I would like to tell you that you should just be glad that you are cancer free, but I know you can't do that. Its' something that will always be there in the back of your mind. I have read on here from other posters who have been cancer-free for several years and it is something they always have on the back of their mind.

If you can, perhaps if you take it in small time frames and plan something that you enjoy and then "live in the moment" with that time. Its' fine to always have it there on your mind, but still enjoy what you have in your life. I think having a cancer diagnosis helps us to appreciate the small blessings that we do have because now we can understand how quickly all that can change.

I hope it helps to know that what you're feeling is quite common. Come back on the forum and let us know how you are doing.

Take care.

Lorraine