I don't really know where to start. !!!

This is very hard for me im not a confident person never have been. B since I got the all clear from breast cancer I seem to be even worse which I didnt think was possible. I got diagnosed with Breast cancer in 2014 had a lumpectomy, chemo and radiotherapy.  All my family friends were very supportive all the way through it.

But know its like uve had cancer u got the ALL CLEAR so get back to normal and forget it even happened,  dont talk about it because thats not what my family want for me. Know I sound like im moaning about my family. God this is so hard. I found another lump in the other breast a few months ago just b4 my Mamagram was due, it scared the life out of me. I thought I cant go through all that again. Then I thought pull your self together aleast I know what to expect this time. 

Then I thought im being paranoid its not there. So had Mamagram and it was clear I was so pleased. 

But every day when I had a bath I felt it. I hadn't told anyone obout this because the family quickly change the subject when I say anything about breast cancer. I dont understand them sometimes. Its a part of my life I can't forget it , im reminded of it every day.scars and tablets and joint pain. 

Sorry think ive got carried away., it helps I think because I cant talk about it. 

THE LUMP IS STILL THERE