Hi Helda, welcome to the forum and I know you will be glad you joined here. People on here know how you feel because all of us likely have experienced the same thing you are going through. I don't have breast cancer, I have bladder and lung cancer, but cancer is cancer, right? Most people who have never had it, just don't have a clue to how it feels. Even if one gets a clear report, others expect you to go on with your life like its' in the past so get over it, right? Wrong! That feeling of "I'm cancer free!" is always said with caution because we're never sure if it will come back. Further to that, the treatments take a lasting toll on most of us that we never fully recover from. People who have never been there, don't realize that those treatments are very powerful drugs and they often leave lasting effects on our bodies. Not to mention the emotional toll that a cancer takes on us. People just don't want to talk about it because of their own fears about it, so we just don't talk about it, even with family.

Helda, you can always come here to the forum and talk about the things that worry you, or just to touch base with people who understand. There is always someone reading and will respond eventually. So come on here and talk about how you feel, good or bad.

Take care and sending you hugs.

Lorraine    

Thankyou for replying lorraine when treatment is over your left to get on with it alone ..until i found this site that is..just read ur reply as i was getting ready for work and it has made my day a bit more bearable thanks for taking the time god bless x

Hi Helda,

I sat here reading your post and can completely relate i was diagnosed in dec 2013 i didnt need a mastacectomy but like you was swept along with surgery, chemo and then radio i think i mostly worked on auto pilot and now whenever i go to see my gp due to nerve damage or just sheer overwhelmness i often feel and say out loud you must look at me and think youve beaten cancer and your still here live your life but how, how do i, we move on and live, live being the opperative word i have my family & friends that have been there for me throughout all of this but i can sit and look at them and think do you really know how i feel,do you really understand when i say im scared of it returning,

I dont know there must be a way we can shout it from th roof tops your not grinding me down anymore so sod off cancer i wish i could wave a magic wand and it all be forgotten and i wake up and say none of this happened to me but i cant and it did................

i hope you find your good days outway your bad days i can only lend a supportive ear along thie journey we all find ourselves on

Take care

Dawn