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Where do I begin ? I think I'm having a breakdown, I've been here before when I was on chemo and found it helped everyone was so lovely, once again I'm reaching out, as have had 2 blackouts in 2 weeks both times trying to end my life, after battling this cancer, I feel like I'm suppose to be living every day like it was my last, instead I'm just spinning in circles and finding everyday a battle, 

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    Hi,

    Sorry to read you are feeling so low. After reading your profile page, I note you were taking tamoxiphen. I understand one of the side effects is mood swings. I have recovered from prostate cancer and had hormone therapy (zoladex) which also give simmilar side effects. I found I could hear/read something sad or even somthing nice and without any warning, I would have tears in my eyes which for a man is very emmbarassing. Even though I completed the h/therapy well over three and a half years ago, I still have the side effects, complete with hot flushes.

    I would suggest you talk to you GP about this and mention the side effects to them.

    Do take care, sending best wishes to you, Brian

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    Thank you Brian I remember you when I was on here last as Lilly12 or something I was on my 3rd chemo back then and you seem to be there for everyone! I'm waiting for a counselling apt, they brought it forward too 8th of April today but suggest I go docs as she wants me to have some Neuro test,  so glad to see you on here.....

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    Hi,

    So sorry to read you are feeling like this.  I was diagnosed in January 2013, not long behind you, and received chemo and radiotherapy followed by Tamoxifen.

    It is a horrible journey, our hormones are everywhere.  There is help out there - just wondering if you attended the Moving On sessions, my breast care nurse told me about these.  They were excellent!  It was good to meet with people who were going through the same as me, and they had lots of experts come in and talk to us.

    Have you talked to your doctor about how you feel, I did feel a bit low and my doctor offered lots of help and support.  McMillian can also help.    In my area my hospital offer, all kinds of alternative therapies from massage to councelling.  We also have a local group who meet once a month to talk about the affects of cancer.  I was not normally a person who would join groups, as I am quite shy, but I soon realised that I needed that extra help.  

    Keep reaching out, and keep in touch with this site.

    Take care 

     

     

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    hi there oh - this is quite a thing you are going through and I am glad your councelling appt has been brought forwards and is only next week. It seems that the emotional side of cancer is the thing that is so unpredictable. I am so sorry to hear you feel down and life is such a battle. This is entirely understandable considering all the things you have been through.

    Lets hope the councellor can help - as we all can. I always found that exercise helped me fight back better than anything else.

    All the best

    Steven

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