Hi,
Having had a diagnosis of CUP (cancer of unknown primary) i was told there was no cure, prolonging life & palative care. After months of pretty harsh treatment i have some how managed to come out of the other end cancer free, i have recently had my first check up which led to scans etc all of which came back clear. The trouble i am having is i worry it may return but as i don't know where it came from i dont know what to look out for. I still am not 100% after the treatment and was feeling a let down for not bouncing back to normal life but my oncologist has told me i apparently had one of the most toxic chemo's they have as they had to target everywhere not a specific area and it will take time. I hope i dont sound like i am whining when so many people on here are still fighting but it was good to get it off my chest. All the best to people still fighting, sometimes miracles do happen they did for me
Jos
Thanks for sharing your good news with us; we always welcome good news. As regards to you concerns about your cancer returning, I think its only natural and I think most of us have that concern. Reading what you say about not bouncing back to normal life, after having cancer, we have to adjust to a new type of normal life for lets face it life will never be quite the same for cancer changes us in many ways. It is a life changing experiance after all. You dont sound like your whining, just being perfectly honest and how most people feel after cancer. I wish you all the very best, Take care, Brian.
Wow Jos - you are so strong = to go through all that - chemo and the mental stress - fantastic results are well deserved. I know its hard = but I would put it behind you and try to move on. People tell me that after cancer - they life as meaningfully as possible. Oh yea, there are tests and hospital visits = but this is a special time. Like rebirth.
I am also worrying about it coming back before mine has even gone! Wat if I'm one of the unlucky ones ? What if it doesn't work on me!!!! It's horrible you just can't ignore it. I find myself looking at random people and envying then getting on with their mundane lives whilst mine (and my families) is on hold ! Can't plan a hol can't go on my brothers 30th birthday do! Just feeling sorry for myself and everyone keeps saying your strong if anyone can do this you can !!!!!!! Huh
Yes Jayne = I totally agree and can only admire you and anyone who have to live with the thought of return. We found the whole business very stressful and although my wife is now free of cancer = it still haunts us too. I know from previous trauma that walking away from it is best = so we use strategies to help. Like exercise and careful eating and emotionally just pushing it away. We still get tired and this I guess is from the shear stress of the last two years.
There is little research done on how people react to such a diagnosis - but in humble view the emotional side is important.
Hi Jane. I know it seems like a massive mountain to climb at the mo with you still having treatment but take one day at a time, we all have the ' why me ' moments. Last year i missed 2 weddings and my sisters 50th birthday which was going to fall a few days after treatment, as it turned out i was in hospital with a massive blood clot on my right lung that nearly killed me. But that is all behind us now and we have 2 nieces that are getting married soon, hen do's and a holiday in may that was cancelled last year due to treatment and we were not sure we would ever get to take. When your treatment is finished you will be able to plan things i know it seems like life is on hold and can be a lonely place to be but it wont be for ever though it seems like it now. Dont feel too bad about feeling sorry for yourself now and again but if you can look forward to all the things you want to do when all this is finished. Wishing you all best wishes for your future Jos
