Cant let go of the fear

Hello all. My name is Gemma, I have recently had a radical hysterectomy for ovarian cancer and thankfully this was the only treatment i needed. The only this is i cant seem to shake that gut feeling that my life is comming to an end. I dont have it constantly but just seems to come over me every now and then, particuly when im starting to feel happy and put this all behind me. Does anyone else ever feel like this. The more i think about it the more i worry.

I wonder if the way i recieved my diognosis of Cancer may have something to do with it. In October last year two months after a standard operation to remove dermoid cysts I recieved a phone call out of the blue. I was told they found early stages of cancer within the cyst. I had no understanding about what this meant, what had happend, what was going to happen, how, what when i was going to deal with this, no where to contact and no one to ask questions. I found It realy tramatic. When i had my operation I was told, that as a standard prcedure they send the cysts off for testing and I would here back within four weeks and sooner if there was a problem so after two months I had forgotton all about it. I have been told that i should not have been told in this way, or at the very least should have been given contact details of someone who i could of contact for support and questions but i did not see anyone until nealry three weeks later. Once i realised what i was up against i could understand it and deal with the cituation and have remained fairly positive since, I just cant shake this worry. Is it just me being an over the top worryer or have others exsperienced this too. 

Thank you for taking the time to read.

Kind regards

Gemma

 

  • I am glad that your treatment was sucessfull. I am eight weeks post op, I was in quite a good helth going into the operation as was kind of exspecting to just bounce bak, however as you have seen this is a major op and bouncing back in an instant just does not happen. It all happend so qiuck, i feel a bit like i am stuck in a while eind, trying to find the pieces to put it all back together. I kind of feel dazed by at all. :confused: 

  • I had the same feelings after breast cancer surgery. The worry is constant, I try to put a brave face on. You are not alone my dear... Just take it day by day.

  • Hi I. Too cant seem to let go of the fear all the time and wonder when it goes. I was told I had kidney cancer needed it removed in 2012 had it removed had no support only from family am having scans every year at moment been all clear. But still I worry does it ever get better?

  • Hello everyone I also feel that dark cloud hanging over me every now and then, especially at night when i wake up,then I cant go back to sleep.I was diagnosed last march and had a total hysterectomy in April 2014 them had 5 months chemo and 25 radiotherapy which finished on 23rd december.Its seems we all get those feelings but I try to stay strong and it sounds like you all do aswell.