Hello Dee1990

I'm so sorry to hear that you're struggling at the moment. It sounds from your post as if things are really difficult for you at the moment, and it's understandable that you're struggling.

You don't mention whether you've spoken with your GP about the struggles that you're experiencing. Please do make an appointment to speak with your doctor and get some support. It may be that your medication can be adjusted to improve the problems that you're struggling with. 

If it would help to talk with one of our nurses, you're most welcome to give them a call. I know they will be happy to listen and offer any advice and support they can. They're available Monday to Friday, 9am to 5pm, on 0808 800 4040. 

I know it can be difficult to ask for help, but you've taken the first step by posting here on the forum. Keep posting if it helps to have a safe space to put things down in writing. We're here for you. 

Best wishes, 
Jenn
Cancer Chat moderator