HelloDebB71

I understand where yoir coming from completley ,im five years on like you from first being diognosed with breadt cancer,that had spread to my lympthnodes,so they were removed as well as having to have a lumpectamy. 

It does change you and you do miss how you was begore being diognosed ,its bound to change everyone in some way or another depending on whst type of cancer and treatments you have to go through. 

But like jolamine has said in her reply to you which is duch hood afvice. I do try to look on the positives ,we are still here  ,we still get to wake up each morning  we got through the treatments,. I really didnt think i could,  the thought of having chemotherapy and Radiotherapy  scared me  soooo much,i nearly refused it but my son had not long been diognosed with testicular cancer before me, and he and my daughter presuaded me to take all trestments offerd. If you dwell to much on how you was before being diognosed  you can easily depress yourself  which is easy to do. Trying to stay positive on the othet hsnd isnt  as easy to do you have to keep telling yourself,thst it was good the cancer was found and trested ,tell yourself you were so lucky to have beaten it and got the care from the NHS ,that you had. . If you wake up each day with positive thoughts it  really helps stopping the negative  thoughts. Im not saying you will never miss the old you,i think we all do at times,but it helps us  to not dwell on how we used to be,and be proud of ourselves of just how far weve come instead  we are too hard on ourselved sometimes ,we should be proud of ourselves that we got through a tertible time. Hope this helps .