Hello Wonder68

I'm sorry to hear that you've been through treatment for breast cancer. I know that many of the members here in the Cancer Chat community will understand the worries and constant thoughts of "but what if" that come along with a cancer diagnosis. You are certainly not alone in having those concerns. 

From your post it sounds as if you'd really benefit from talking with someone about all that you've been through and the concerns that you have. There is no right or wrong way to feel after going through a cancer diagnosis. It's great to hear that your most recent mammogram was clear but it's also OK to acknowledge all that you've been through, the thoughts and feelings you've had, and still continue to have. You're not a fraud. 

It's worth talking with the breast care nurses if you can contact them. It may be that they can refer or sign post you to services in your area where you can talk with a cancer support specialist. There may be an organisation such as Maggie's in your area that you can visit. You don't need a referral ... just drop in for a cuppa and a chat. Penny Brohn also offer online counselling services that you can access. And of course you're most welcome to give our lovely team of nurses a call here at Cancer Research UK. I know they will be happy to listen and offer any advice, information and support they can to help you begin to move forward again. If you'd like to talk with them, they're available Monday to Friday 9am to 5pm on 0808 800 4040. 

It's ok to feel as you do Wonder68 but it's also a really positive step that you've made those first steps to reach out for support. Keep in touch with us here at Cancer Chat if it helps to have a safe space to put down in writing how you're feeling, ask questions or chat with others who understand. We're here for you. 

Sending my best wishes, 
Jenn
Cancer Chat moderator