Ive just had my kidney removed 8 days ago. My consultant is confident they've removed all the cancer and I'll be ok after I recover so why am I struggling with it all? I feel absolutely traumatised after ending up in HDU afterwards. I'm in pain, I'm struggling to cope, emotionally, mentally and I just don't see any happiness in my future anymore. Always worrying it'll come back or be somewhere else. I feel selfish as I know there's folk in a worse predicament but how do you get rid of the emotional distress?