Hello Connor.  When I read your post I felt the need to reply to you.  I am so sorry for what you and your  partner have been through and are still going through.  I met my partner 10 years ago and 6 years ago I was diagnosed with breast cancer, which is now terminal.  It was just over 2 years ago that I was told that I was terminal and I left my partner and went to live with my sister.  My reason for doing this?  Because I Love him so much that I wanted to spare him the misery of watching me die. In fact, I told him that he must try to meet someone else and find Love again.  At first he was hurt and angry, but recently he said to me, "I am now beginning to understand just how much Love it takes for you to do what you did.......you are dying and yet your thoughts were all about me and what would be best for me".  Connor, it sounds like your partner is in the same situation.  Your partner says that she Loves you and wants to be with you, but it seems like she simply doesn't want to put you through any more of this cancer nightmare.  There has been no contact between the two of you for a month, so I would suggest that you write her a letter, telling her exactly how you feel.  Please don't feel that she isn't appreciative of all the support you gave her in the past......I suspect that she feels very appreciative indeed, and she is trying to do what is best for YOU.  The reason I have suggested a letter is because it is much more personal and intimate than an email or a text.  Good luck Connor, I truly hope that everything works out for the best, for the both of you.  

Hi blue-girl thankyou so much for your response 

it really helps to get another side to what someone in your situation and the reason behind it, the issue I have she told me I was unsupportive what is crazy cause I drove her to appointments every week I told her it’s not your fault what’s happened and she wanted kids said I’ll pay for ivf or we can adopt , I felt I done so much I sent flowers gifts she moved back out to hers mums and started slowly pulling away to completely shutting down honestly so confused 

Hello again Connor.  It's an awful situation isn't it?  One thing that I would like to add is that cancer has a huge impact on our mind-set.  I have said some truly horrible things to my partner, which makes me feel so ashamed.  Cancer really messes with your mind, and you don't know what you are thinking or feeling from one minute to the next.  Why not write her that letter?  She might respond, she might not........but at least you will know that you did everything that you could.  My thoughts and prayers are with you and your partner. xx