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New-biggin

Hi New_biggin

Just had to reach out to you after your posts,as other people have said its quite normal to feel how your feeling,it really is. But try to look at it all in another way...ie you've been through so much allready,the shock of the diognoses, im guessing tests and scans etc before  and maybe after the diognoses, the wait for your operation etc,now it's all done,think of how far you've come,you've got through all of that,and come out with the all clear,which by the way is wonderful to read. But  don't beat yourself up  be proud of yourself  for getting through it all,and put your mind in the mind set of ie...it's taken so much fror me to have gone through what I've gone through, im not going to let it rule the rest of my life it's not going to defeat me,im the winner here it's gone from my body and now I'm.not going to let the fear of it returning  consume ny mind,im not going to let it shut me off from socialising, doing things I used to do,as by giving in and continuing on like this im letting it win. Tell yourself your life is worth living it the way you used to,start with small steps,the first step is keeping in your mind...I'm in controll now, im in control of my thoughts  which will from this moment forward all positive ,and I'm sure in time those thoughts will be nicer and kinder to yourself. But  even when  they raise thier ugly head ,as it's normal to feel this way sometimes,it won't be all consuming as it is for you now. Hope this will help you . 

Thank you so much for your kind words, it made me cry lol , yes I will try x bless you

I am sorry that you have gone through all this and feel so low .I had a double mastectomy two years ago ,followed by chemo and been reconstructed too . All clear now ,apparently ,but the worry is always there . I have been very low too and have approached my GP regarding antidepressants , have started on them now and hoping things will improve . I do socialize but it’s difficult . Have a chat wit your GP . Best wishes xxx

Thank you for replying, bless you , you have been through a lot yes went to doctors and got antidepressants,they are working take care

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