Hi there - sorry if this goes on a bit but I think just typing it might help. I finished treatment for Stage 2 grade 2 breast cancer in March (surgery,Chemo then radio) and don’t get me wrong I feel so much better than a few months ago, (Chemo was the worst) but a lot of the time I’m still struggling. I feel really guilty as my family and friends have been/are amazing, my husband works really hard and is my rock always - But I know some people go back to work by now! Some days for me just getting up and having a shower , brushing my teeth clean clothes, cooking dinner - thats all Ive achieved. I do have side effects from the surgery tbf (nerve pain/damage) and the Tamoxifen sweats are kicking my behind atm. Plus I have a problem with my leg (had an X-ray and was scared stiff as they thought I’d got bone cancer, luckily it was nt ) and a benign bone tumour in my left arm which hurts everyday bla, bla …….. oh! And Fibromyalgia. Again huge feeling of guilt as I know of people (who I was in hospital with ) who have not been so lucky and have now gone to Stage 4 or might not even be here now. I don’t know …… I’m really trying to make the most of things as you honestly don’t know what’s round the corner, but I’m scared every time I get a pain or feel unwell (especially after my last X-ray :/) that it’s back again and it feels like it’s taking over sometimes! Just wondering does it get easier? Im 46 but feel much older physically atm which is embarrassing. Anyway try and stay strong whoever’s reading this! and Thankyou for taking the time - apologies for the stupidly long post x
