This is the first time I have used a forum support related to my cancer treatment. I struggled I guess to admit I might be finding it hard because you just accept what’s happening and do what you need to do.
I do find myself feeling overwhelmed at this point in recovery and confused about whether I should be feeling so exhausted and at times sad.
I had chemotherapy, radiotherapy and Brachytherapy last year and during this time sadly my father sadly died, not expected and far too soon. I just had to accept it and be strong and ensure my family and children saw that I was okay. So sometimes it’s incredibly difficult to then admit you don’t feel like you can be strong, or admit you feel angry, withdrawn from happiness and guilty that you are okay when many don’t get to be.
I experience many feelings of guilt and feel that being overwhelmed is an overreaction to the treatment, yet that is not the advice I would give others.
Does anyone else find it so difficult to be self kind and give themselves time and space, I don’t really like admitting openly to my loved ones I feel like this and often tell myself it’s pathetic to feel this way. I am working and life just carried on but I definitely feel trauma and different inside.
