I really detest the term moving on! There is no such thing for some of us. Its almost year 4 on Tamoxifen. GP will tell you the vast majority on it are fine & dismiss so called rare side effexts, like bone pain My hubby was dying when a lump I knew Id had a long time got painful. He had bowel cancer so he came first.later. His was the first of 6 deaths in 9 months. I told him too late to discuss it properly as his speech was goimg. Its rare for bowel cancer to go to the brain but they suspected it & cos he moved during scan they wouldnt repeat it. So I live with thanot knowing, It was 2019, so pre covid. Our 3 yr old grandson died weeks later during my surgery I didnt' want but felt obliged to have.The consequences of  this was not just the loss of my soulmate & 5 others I love, but chosing to deal with treatment alone, as family was exhausted. Otherdeaths/calamaties happened,*including covid isolation) in these 4 yrs (& after hubbys long battle & the caring involved while working full time..& being bullied .. more. Tamoxifen side effets are horrible. Was told I need to be on them 10yrs as cancer spread. My surgery did a lot of mental  damage.  Surgeon discussed plans 'in front' of' me, rather then 'with me'.  I said  I wanted just enough breasts to feel feminine ie A  cup, surgeons looked at a colleague suggesting C cup! I didn't argue. My uncles 3 daughters,(blood  1st cousins) all died of breast cancer & other cancers in the family.  Anyway, there was nerve damage which has improved only slightly down one arm, reducing from shoulder to below elbow to just above elbow. Flash pains under the arm and accross chest are no less whatsoever. The bone and joint pains meant i bought electric wheelchair as tamoxifen aggravated existing arthritis. I had an op on my shoulder before cancer, needing more surgery, which they now won't touch.  Supporting myself on sticks or walker is so painful. 8 months ago, our daughter, 40, had a stroke.First noted as a TIA, affected her memory &d heart. New may have lung cancer. After so much tragedy I got a stammer.  I was told would go once bad stuff stopped ok...still waiting. I won't detailyhr saga of . consequences .....buty cancer does NOT stop just cosyou have multiple crises, or exhausted or mentally blown to bits.....for those who see a new dawn, great! For me, losing my my soulmate was worst. He will miss so many milestones. i& special days. My rock who would havegot us all through..Don't want to hear: Moving on, Getting over, changing up,or any other platitudes. Not even begun to think of what happened to my body. You still have to deal with the mental trauma & brace yourself for next bombshell. This includes being panned:...Drama queen,  negativity magnet, LIAR even (all this can't happen to one family of course!) We were cursed with crises throughout, but always got each other through & dragged everyone up with us. My current stance hasn't changed at all if honest.....I am here cos family been through enough. I am only driver so I can help if needed, it also allows me to escape four walls.I am pleased for all those who face similar things and have emerged fairly unscathed. .I think I am too damaged.  Good luck everyone & truly hope your journey is better mine, and DON'T let GP dismiss tamaoxifen as a drug 'everyone' is fine on if its not for you!.