Hi Jan.  I can understand how you feel and these feelings are absolutely natural. I have been through surgery and chemoradiation 18 and 16 months ago respectively and still have the feelings of it returning, I have found they are less often if I keep myself busy with distractions such as, meeting friends, gardening or taking regular walks. I think we all find our own ways to cope and I find time is a good healer.

I don't think it sounds silly at all. I think those are very normal feelings to have after a cancer diagnosis. I had thyroid cancer three and a half years ago and while it is a pretty mild form of cancer and I was told "we got it all" as soon as I woke up from the operation, I did have moments over the following year when I asked similar questions to you. What if it reoccurs? What if I am one of those rare cases where it reoccurs somewhere outside the neck? What if they missed something?

I do think those feelings become less common as time passes, if that's any reassurance.

Oh thank you for replying . I am hoping in time and support from family and friends will make  it easier.  Best wishes Jan 

Dear Mary  thank you  for your response. Thank you for not accepting it was silly to think along these lines. I am hoping I can slowly return to normal thinking. Best wishes Jan 

Thank you lara. So lovely to know that I am not alone with these thoughts  love Jan 

Hi Jan,  I understand how you feel and what you are going through.  I was diagnosed with breast cancer October 2020 and had surgery and radiotherapy.  On the one hand I have moved forward and getting on with my life.... but, I can't forget.  To some extent I am living in fear ....what if it returns, will I find it etc.  Not sure the 'what if's' will ever go away and wish there was a way of knowing for certain  but there isn't.  Hope mow time will help.  Take care and stay strong. xx