Hi there, I was diagnosed with BC in early Feb, had a lumpectomy late Feb and am due to have some radiotherapy in April. I have just this week started Tamoxifen . I started working from home this week and am due back into the office next week but will then take time off again for the radiotherapy. I can very much relate to what you are experiencing.  Ever since the diagnosis I have struggled to stay focused and motivated and have at times wanted the earth to swallow me up as it has felt quite overwhelming even though my prognosis is excellent.

I have just this week started having really intense dreams including about dying which I didn't have before and I don't know if that is the Tamoxifen or starting work again or if it is just my brain starting to process what I have been through.
 

Be kind to yourself and try not to beat yourself up when you feel down. I am trying to reflect in the evenings before bed on all the things that went well during the day even if it is just that we managed to have dinner as a family without any arguments (2 teenagers in the house). 
 

Monika