Hello Gwennan01

I think the title of your post perfectly describes all that you've been through in such a short period of time. 

Firstly your Mum's diagnosis. Then your own diagnosis. Your wedding then losing your Mum not long afterward. Followed by your own surgery, the funeral, and now facing radiotherapy and all the changes that can come along with hormone treatment. 

It is a lot. 

And so it's perfectly understandable that you're low. So much has happened in these past few months. So much. 

I hope that you have a good network of family and friends around you that you've been able to lean on for support. Keep talking with them. But I'd also suggest that you maybe consider reaching out for some counselling support. Have a chat with your breast care nurse. It may be that the hospital has a psychology service that they're able to refer you to or will know about the services that are available in your local area. Alternatively, you could contact an organisation such as Maggie's. They have a number of services available that I know lots of our members have found useful. 

If you'd like to chat things through with one of our nurses for some support and advice you're welcome to call them on 0808 800 4040, Monday to Friday 9 am to 5 pm. 

Lastly, I'd say be kind to yourself Gwennan. Take things a day at a time. Give yourself time to adjust to all that you are going through, time to grieve the loss of your Mum, and yes, also time to celebrate and enjoy being a newly married woman. 

You are very welcome to keep posting here on the forum if it helps to have somewhere to write down your thoughts and feelings in a safe space. There will always be a listening ear for you here. 

Sending my best wishes, 
Jenn
Cancer Chat moderator