So, I didn't lose my dad to cancer although I thought that it would be the catalyst.. I have lost my dear grandmother to this though after a 7 year fight. I lost my dad to covid... He was my best friend and he was not that ill. He was conscious talkative and in touch with us, he even said how it had scared home and spoke about what day he be back.... That was the belief... He was 62 a care worker and took all the measures..... I still cannot fathom how or why he got it..... He called an ambulance, was not bad enough..... 2 days later he was admitted... We were told he was OK, poorly but coping well, would be coming home.... 2 days later.... Talks of putting him in a induced coma in the morning if he had a bad night.....few hours later he was in cardiac arrest from a blood clot to the lung and I never saw him again...this day last year was the last time I saw him, he died on the 12th January 2021.. The last card he wrote said I hope 2021 is your year .... I can't bear him not being here, I knew I adored him but I never knew how much his absence would affect me... Merry Christmas to you all and love to those struggling the same