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will this be my last Christmas

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Hi everyone that has replied to my post.  

I honestly thank all of you for taking the time to reply. I suppose I have hit a time when I am tired of being ill.  This has gone on again since 2012 and you feel that you would just like it to all be normal again.  I have lived with lymphodema since my breast cancer in1997 so I've always had that reminder of cancer and always felt the lucky one to have survived that so to get it again in 2012 wasn't on the plan. 

I haven't given up and will live with it but I am also tired of it.  I have a wonderful family,  although my husband doesn't talk about it.  My daughter is a senior nurse and sometimes I worry she knows to much but she is my strength and she is also my best friend.  She helps my son and her friends help her and I have a wicked 5 year old grandson who we adore, so so much to live for.  I will enjoy Christmas as I usually do and if im here next year I will enjoy that so please all of you have a wonderful Christmas with your family and friends xxxx

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    Hi there. I got a sense that you are really tired of dealing with this darn disease. I can relate. I have been dealing with various cancers since 2009 and like you, I am darn fed up with it. It seems like treatment/surgery  does get it under control and then whammo, it pops up somewhere else. I guess I'm getting to the point where I'm wondering when its' time to say enough is enough. I've never been one to give up on anything, so it would be against my nature to call it quits. We all have an innate desire to live as long as possible, but we would like it to be in better health. We continue to fight it though, so upward and onward. Good luck to you going forward. I hope your Christmas is a pleasant one with your family and friends as well.

    Take care.

    Lorraine 

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    Hi harry,

    I am so sorry that you are feeling so tired but hope that you will enjoy your time with your family and your 'wicked' 5 year old grandson - the wee dote. My thoughts are with you. X

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