I have now returned to work ove4 last few weeks post multiple surgeries and about to start an AI. Chemo not likely on cards.  I am finding it immensely hard working, I am still not sleeping more than a few hours a night, I am very anxious about everything, I have a massive amount of work and seem to be expected to be able to  get on with it.  I also know that side effects from the ai are likely to be challenging. I feel so far from being able to work as I did before but my manger seems to think I will be able to in the future, I have been given someone to help me, told I don't need to do everything but it is still unbelievably hard.  I work for the charity so it doesn't help that the subject matter is in my face all day too and little things are reminders of my own diagnosis and prognosis. People have often referred to me having had time off like it was a holiday rather than major surgery.  Is it too early to abandon hope that I will be able to work again ? Should I try for a bit longer? The only good thing is that if I work then at least I do get to speak with people in the day so not so lonely so I wondered if ultimately I would be better trying to work.  I wondered if anyone else has any idea how long it takes to feel normal at work again and if they work for a cancer charity or healthcare how they managed to cope with all the reminder's?