I was diagnosed with testicular cancer - seminoma - last year and had my right testicle removed. This was followed by chemotherapy in December of last year and the PET scan seemed to have suggested that the cancer did not spread anywhere else. There has been no tumour marker detected in my blood samples during my follow up appointments.

More recently however, I seemed to have noticed that my left testicle feels "different". As if it's bigger but it's not like I have another one to compare it to at this point, right? Sigh... what if I now have cancer in my left, and only, testicle?

I have not gone to the Doctor's yet because my follow up appointment has been moved to January. I feel reluctant to go now.... what if they confirm it? I'll lose both testicles... I'm only 36. What will it do to me, losing my manhood?

I'm sorry if this offends anyone, especially those who has had to remove both testicles due to this stupid cancer.. but I am at a loss. What are the chances that it is indeed cancer despite having my other testicle already removed and chemotherapy done??

Fira.