Partner had tumour removed 3 years ago. His check up scans have increased in frequency as another mass has been found and its being actively monitored.

For at least a week before each scan and then the subsequent wait for results my partner and I are a mess. My anxiety is through the roof. We have previously had counselling around living with cancer as this is really our new normal, but it is still like a reoccurring nightmare when the scans come up.

I fear the worst each time and it just takes over my thoughts. I find myself tearful over the most simple things. I meditate everyday and listen to sleep stories on the calm app to send me off each night at the moment. I am trying to keep busy and things normal.

Not sure what I want from this post apart from I suppose to hear from anyone who knows the feeling (friends and family just really don't get it it seems). Some family members assume we don't worry as partner is exhibiting no symptoms. This is obviously not the case as its non stop worry around these times. Thanks for reading.