I lost my beautiful wife last July to aggressive cancer. we were close to our 34th wedding anniversary. the aggressive cancer was diagnosed in May and died 6 weeks later. Prior to her cancer I was diagnosed with liver cancer in February, because I was the wife's full time carer, I decided not to tell her, she had her own health problems. and me telling her I had liver cancer would only have worried her all the more. on the 12 July 2020 we new something was happening, that's when I told her she won't be alone. as I had liver cancer, she smiled , exhaled and she had gone. So for the last 8 months although I think about my wife every day and night, I've been neglecting my own health. I have diabetes take insulin and tablets. When ever I get upset I find this is playing into my sugar levels, and have come very close to being in a coma. I do have things to take to stop this kind of thing happening. So today I was having a morning call with the cancer unit I'm under. I had an MRI less than 3 weeks ago and I was having a call consultation. at first I thought the normal wait to hear about a MRI scan results takes 6 to 8 weeks. So what had they found, as it had only been less than 3 weeks prior to my last MRI scan. The call was more or less to tell me I have a face to face meeting with the liver unit. to talk about my option or the way to go. Option one is a liver resection. not key hole surgery due to my last procedure of Ablation failure and the position of the tumour close to the gallbladder and the bowel wall. it would have to be a scar so the can push the gallbladder away from any damage. Or option two is to be put on a transplant list. I was told to read up on each option and give me some ideas for any questions I might want to ask. How confusing it was when I read option one. because I have severe cirrhosis of the liver. option one says I am not suitable for this procedure. For me I'm thinking the hospital have more or less given me only one option the transplant list. the reason I think this is on my last 3 visits for MRI scans, nurses have asked each time your on the transplant list, which is new to me, I know I was told the worst case scenario would be the transplant list but that was well over two years ago. I am assuming someone here has been through the same thing or had this procedure done. can anyone give me advice or tell me about their experiences. Sorry for the long winded post. and if you have made it to the end. thanks.