I'm really scared. I don't know how to react or feel anymore. My future has been taken away. My kids are going to face growing up without a mum.
I had ovarian cancer 6 years ago when I was 32. I had a ovarian cyst that ruptured when I was 8 weeks pregnant. My baby survived and she was born. After that I had a full hysterectomy. No chemo at the time as it was a year after the rupture and the type of cancer it was chemo would have only been 5 percent effective. I was fine for 5 years.
Then in June this year I started having blood in my poo. Went to my gp and took ages to get through the hospital system due to Covid and had been signed off from the hospital from my original cancer. So they eventually found a mass and it turned out to be related to the cancer from before. I started chemo in September and have now finished. The cancer hasn't completely gone, I have a very small bit left. I've got incurable cancer. I'm going on medication to slow down the growth until chemo again. But I can never get rid of it and at some point I won't be able to have chemo anymore.
I've just started to post to forums as I need to talk to anyone who might be going through this and heard this news. I've got a young family and I can't deal with this. I don't know how long I've got left. I feel well at the moment. But I know what eventually is coming and can't bare for my kids to be left without a mummy.
