I was diagnosed with colon cancer 15mths ago. I had to have a picc line & chemo chemotherapy by IV & then a pump for 2days. I had 8 of these. I have been stable & not had chemo for the last 9 mths. However after my latest scan results my cancer markers have increased & it has grown in my lungs & liver, but has gone from my bowel & back which is good. I am scared to be starting chemo again as I know what to expect. I can't get my head around it as I have always been hopeful that it was going to go, even though I was told it would not. I know that sounds silly but can't seem to feel positive at the moment as it has dawned on me that I will have to have chemo every few months for as long as I feel I can take it. sorry to sound morbid but just can see the light at the end of the tunnel. It has been a shock as feeling so good & not unwell at all.