Cancer, chemo, Covid, Christmas and isolation what a combination. Its been a difficult time having to pretend to family and friends that you're okay when you're not.

Families coming together sharing a meal and enjoying laughter and conversation, with the widows open just in case, whilst your eating a meal for one in silence or with the television on in the background.  I am very much aware that many people are in the same situation ....even worse, but its a time to reflect on the positives. I am me. I have survived.  I am alive, and for this I am grateful.

My hope for 2021 is that the Covid vaccine is rolled out quickly (my right arm is ready and prepared for that day.) It will enable life to get back to some sort of normality (whatever normality means).

Cancer is a horrible disease that affect not only the individual but also the family and to some extent it become a family illness, an illness that they have no control of because they are not the ones with the disease.  They support, love and care, but its a journey that only you can go through. Its a very long journey when you're going through  it on your own because your family live many miles away.  There is hope and light at the end of the tunnel, and thats what we need to focus on. One day Cancer will be beaten, with new treatments advancing every year. This gives us hope of a better tomorrow. Our researchers, doctors and nurses in the NHS are woking tirelessly, without them I would not be here writing to this forum.  So thank you to the NHS Workers.

My hope and prayers are for new Cancer treatments and in the long term a cure. Christmas comes on the 25th December every year, and hopefully next year instead of isolation we/I will share Christmas lunch, laugh and have conversations with the windows shut, and with my family.

As you go through your own personal journeys please don't go through it alone, reach out, there's someone there who will  walk with you.

Jam03