Hi,

This is my first time posting on here. I just am struggling a bit with the situation at the moment. My nana who I am very close to who basically helped to raise me and my sisters has terminal lung cancer. It is very devastating but my nana has also been completely healthy up to the last year or so and has lived a long life, so we knew that something like this could happen soon. However we have also found out my auntie (60) has cancer, who I am also very close to. Its a recurrence but stage II I think. We don't know at this point what the outcome is likely to be.

It makes things harder that I can barely see either of them due to covid, mostly for their own safety. I just want to go round for sunday dinner or something, give them a big hug and see them like we always used to. My mum is very stressed and upset at the moment. I'm finding things difficult because I can't see an end to the situation.

I'm 19 and haven't experienced any of my close relatives having cancer (when I knew)- I'm finding it hard to think positively. I have problems with anxiety and depression which I trying to improve on but I can't help but see everything negatively. I can't see the light at the end of the tunnel. I keep thinking that cancer is going to appear again and again in life and I don't understand how I or others can cope.

Does anyone have any words or advice?

Thanks so much