Dear All,
I'm finding today a little hard and I'm crying for the first time and if honest feeling sorry for myself.
I was diagnosed on 1st July with grade 3 IDC and high grade DCIS I have no nodes involvement and HER2 negative, I have felt so blessed and lucky, I had a lumpectomy on 28th July and it has been very successful so successful that I can say I am now cancer free I found this out at my results appointment on Wednesday also my cancer is being sent to America for a Oncotype DX as this will help find the best treatment, again I feel so lucky or should I say felt!!! Today it has hit me that the fight is not over and it looks like it is heading towards Chemo as adjuvant treatment, I'm scared and feel like I should not have the right as I have been lucky all along and I guess being afraid won't help the fight but Chemo is really really frightening me and I did not expect to feel like this today, I have amazing support from family and close friends but today I just need my cancer family.
I'm sorry to feel like this and typing this is making me feel a bit better, I guess I was a fool to think it's all over or maybe because I have been so strong I broke today.
Liz xx
