I am beyond devestated as I was happily half way through adjuvent chemo and was told I'm incurable. Apparently I cannot have surgery. Am still waiting to be told about my palliative chemo. 
in myself I have never felt so fit and no aches or pains.How can I be so ill. I keep thinking I will wake up and it's been a nightmare.

i can't stop crying over the fact I will be leaving my Mum (88 yrs old) to care for my Dad (94)who has dementia. The fact I will never have a grandchild, or see my daughter in her wedding dress (she can't afford to get married for 3 yrs. 

I have no cancer team supporting me and no real faith in the oncologist who on the first occasion we met he got the wrong cancer just after I'd had surgery and the nurse rang me later to say he was wrong.

Sorry I have gone on but I don't know how to deal with it.