Hi everyone .
Im feeling sick after my telephone call from consultant today to disscuss my operation of lumpectomy and all my lymph nodes being removed.
The tumour was actually 2cm not 1cm as i was previously told.
I knew there was cancer cells present in two of my lymph nodes allready after my core biobsys.
Today i was told cancer cells was present in 3 of all the ones they had removed.
And if it was only in two of thrm and not three, and i wouldnt be being offered chemotherapy as a precaution to stop the chance of. it returning in the future. But because there was cancer present in three they were offering me chemotherapy.
I wasnt expecting this at all, I'd convinced myself it would be radiotherapy and letrazole as thats what was discussed at the start if this all.
The oncologist is going to call me sometime this week to disscuss things with me.
The consultant has said it's my decision and no one is going to force me to go through with it. I realy am petrified and keep.telling myself i wasnt asked to go back to have an operation to take any more away, so the margins must have been ok. So im thinking i haven't got cancer in my body now as its all been taken away. And if i put myself through it all, theres no guarantees...i may not havev i t come back ii i went ahead or not. And who's to say if i did it wiuldnt cime bsck as ive known many people to have chemotherapy and it comes back anyway. Im not feeling grest anyway as i have a seroma under my arm, and have to go to the breast clinic nurse tomorrow aftetnoon to msybe get it drained, and im nervous about that incase it causes an infection. Just stressed out at having to.make such a difficult decision,, but ill listen to the oncologist and decide later after discussing it with my family, but it will still be ultimately my decision.