A new year message to cancer ..

IT MAY SEEM LIKE YOU CONTROL OF MY LIFE RIGHT NOW ....  BUT YOU DON'T  !!

YOUR PRESENCE ONLY MAKES ME STRONGER , BRAVER , KINDER AND WISER ....

I CHOOSE HOW I THINK ...WHAT I SPEAK ... AND HOW I LOVE ...

YOU WILL NEVER BE ABLE TO TOUCH THOSE THINGS ....   NEVER ....

THE FEAR OF YOUR NAME WILL NO LONGER HAUNT MY SOUL ...

BECAUSE MY SOUL BELONGS TO ME AND THOSE I LOVE ...

YOU MAY MAKE A CLAIM ON THIS FRAIL OUTER SHE'LL.... 

BUT NEVER ON MY SPIRIT THAT CRYS OUT " I AM NOT MY BODY " 

MY SOUL WILL RUN .. LEAP .. AND TOWER OVER YOUR ATTEMPS TO PULL ME DOWN IN DISPAIR ...

THOSE WHO SURROUND ME WILL FIGHT WITH ME ... AND WE WILL NOT SURRENDER  ...

YOU SEE CANCER YOU DO NOT OWN ME ... OR CHANGE WHO I AM ... 

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this is just my opinion ... how I feel ... I do not want to take or change anyone's opinion on their journey ... we are all different .. but remember ... cancer will never have a friend ... never know give or receive compation.... it feels stronger the weaker we get ..  so let's hold on together in 2020 ... making a bond of friendship,  to help us through ... and to remember all our buddies and family and friends this year that we lost ... all in our hearts ...  and to those newly diagnosed ... join our chain .. make it so strong so one day we all put cancer into the past ... so to all our buddies on here .. let's hope for tomorrow  .... we should always carry hope ... and a big new year hug to everyone ...   Chrissie  

  • Thank you so much chriss,

    Only seeing this reply now,yes the bad days are just that,bad,but im trying so hard to be braver,more positive And Praying that this chemo,(2 types) is hiring this cancer, invoice alone after losing my hubby to cancer so it gets very lonely,I'm just turned 50 last may and my life has been turned upside down,

    I'm coping with treatment but I have to Admit the no help out there for our mental health is discracful,

    They really need to be stepping this up,what do you think?

    Thank you Again for your lovely reply,keeping the faith,

    Best Wishes,

    Ange!

  • Woo hoo, you go girl.

    I will get results of biopsy on breast on Thursday and what happens next.

    Like you I am going to battle. I will be looking at all the ways I can prepare, mentally and physically. 

    I am on my own but blessed with family who love me. I also have practical matters to deal with in terms of finances, re job, etc.  All of that will be dealt with in time.

    Having said all of the above, I don't really know what I'm dealing with yet. And well up and weep everynow and then.  But that's okay too, I am trying nearly hard to be mindful of each moment and focus on what does my heart good.

    Sending you kindest thoughts, I'm with you x x x x x x x x x 

     

  • Hi there and welcome ...

    I see you've gone on the "good and bad" thread ... that's amazing .. I'm no one spiecial, just a little link in a big wonderful , crazy , load of the people , I've been honered to get to know on here ... I've never met one of them, but they have a big place in my heart .. it's a two way thing on here .. we help when we can, and have reached out to others on here when wer having a rough time ...

    That thread tells of so many story's on here ... the good and the bad ... the ups and the downs ... there's both on this journey of ours .. most of those lasses have been and moved on back to their lives "post cancer"  which in its self shows how far cancer has come .. 

    So it's up to newbies like you, to keep it going ... Sandra... she pops by to see how wer doing .. as do others .. but it needs to keep going .. it needs people like you .. a safe place for new ones to go too .. it's not about just cancer .. we all had a few laughs along the way .. 

    So you go girl too .. we can all be a link in this amazing chain .. so so many find their way here, scared and needing a hand to hold .. so here's to us all .. and mustn't forget the good and bad honery male .. Billy... though both are welcome ... sending a big hug as always ... Chrissie xx

  • Hi there hunny ..

    Bless ya .. I've tagged  @Paulus  ... he's lost his amazing partner to cancer too .. and struggling with his health too at the mo .. l know he'll pop on if he can ..

    But like the last lass, look on "the good and bad" thread .. it's really long and just go to the last page where you could both benifit from those journey on there ... 

    Please don't try to be brave ... you already are ... just comming on here ... l let all my emotions out, and in doing that find the strength to go on .. and telling yourself it's o.k to feel them .. coz when you get back up, cancer better watch out ... wer all comming after it .. but in between .. 

    Yes mental health with cancer needs help in those waiting weeks ... even something like a buddy phone number to call when really scared ... that's my new year wish .. because untill someone gets refured for a two week refural / results / operations And treatments to start .. people can only guess how petrified we all get ... but thank God for this site .. at least we know wer not alone ..

    Big vertual hug ... Chrissie xx

  • Oh wow.... just wow chrisie... summed up perfectly ️
     

    Hope u have had the best of the holiday season. Sending my virtual clink of my wine glass to celebrate another year of winning at life x ️X

  • Hi ange i think from any bodies point of view as soon as there diagnosed with cancer stress comes into play, and with stress you get mental health issues. But you have to see a different person to get that sorted which adds more stress,. One day someone might get all this sorted but probably not very soon.............. Billy 

  • Thank you so much,I'd be totally lost without this tread,

    You are an amazing lady andni wish nothing only the best for you going forward,

    Please God I get this Anxiety noutnif my system,I feel I would be flying only for it as treatment has been good to me so far,no major set backs,

    Blessings 

    Ange!

  • Thanks Billy,

    You also inspire me,

    Hope allmis good with you and your wife,please send a little positivity and prayer my way,

    Gp reckons I should just cope with what's going on,if it was that easy I wouldn't be bothering her in the 1 at place,seriously have to wonder where there mentality and compassion is,

    Anyway we'll see what happens,thanks Again,

    Ange!