I’m just feeling really down tonight. Nearing the end of chemo, with only one more to go. After that, I’ll receive maintenance therapy every three weeks so there’s still a long road ahead. I’m not sure the chemo is working as I now have the same bloated feeling that I had prior to diagnosis. I’ve gained weight, lost my hair and have a huge scar from surgery. I’m tired of thinking about cancer and chemo and feel like I’ve lost myself. I live alone and am so disappointed with the lack of support from my family that I don’t know how I’m going to put on a cheery face for Christmas with them. It’s so tough going through this alone and putting on a brave face every day.
I don’t know what I’m hoping to achieve with this post but just wanted to express how I’m really feeling. Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day.
