Hi jellytot, i can quite well understand how you feel mines not as long as you, ive prostate cancer that's gone to lymph nodes, spine, ribs, pelvis and a lung, stage 4 uncurable, i call it my uninvited guest, like you I'm on treatment all the time and cemo now and again, you don't say if the treatment is helping, or even shrinking your tumors, with mine cemo shrinks it then i wait for it to grow then more cemo, i was diagnosed Feb 2016 been living normal??? Life was working till just before Xmas 2018 i have to look after my disabled wife she needs 24 /7care, if you want to talk your welcome anytime, can't always call back straight away with looking after Mrs, as i said your welcome to join us. Best wishes. Billy