Hi,   firstly you have done so so well for 8 years,   what an achievement.  It must be devastating again to be taken back to the cancer journey.

It has been found and it can be watched and monitored.  It is so daunting but unfortunately cancer doesn't care that you have gone through all this before does it?    Have you tried a Macmillan Support Centre,   just a thought.

Lots has improved in the last eight years with research and cancer treatments.   I know your post is really about,   can I do it again.!!    Yes you can and you will.

My husband has oesophagus cancer has had chemotherapy and is having the operation in the next few weeks to remove the tumour and reconstruction. With chemotherapy after the operation,  all of this you have so bravely gone through and come out the other side.    You are an inspiration.

My husband had very aggressive prostate cancer in 2017 and had 37 days of high dose gruelling radiotherapy.   The oesophagus cancer diagnosis in June of this year has broken us.   We couldn't believe it was back yet a second time, like you we just thought we can't go through this again,  we have been very low and sad and have gone through all of the same feelings again that only people diagnosed with cancer can understand where you go,  mentally and physically.     We wish you well with everything,   you can do this,  and we are here anytime you need to chat.   Best Wishes Jellybeans and hubbie.