On the 10th April 2019 I was diagnosed with testicular cancer exactly one month and five days after my 21st birthday. I had my right testicle removed one month later and started chemotherapy on 1st Jul (7 hours for three consecutive days and then two 30 minute darts the two following Monday’s). The chemo made me very poorly to the point I wanted to stop but found something inside to carry on. On Monday (8th July) I had 30 minutes of chemo as planned and went home where I began to feel unwell on the eve of the Monday I was rushed into hospital by ambulance on a pre-alert as I had developed neutropenic sepsis and was in a very bad way. I am still currently in hospital (due to be discharged today ). I am due my final blast of chemotherapy Monday but am really battling with myself as I don’t want to have it particularly in case it puts me back in hospital and I’m just so fed up of being tired and scared all the time. My family are keen for me to have it but will support whatever I decide. Has anyone else questioned wether to go on with treatment? What did you do? Can missing 30 minutes really make that much of a difference? It was only ever precautionary and to lower my chances of the cancer returning from 50% to 4%. Surely they’re can’t be anything left? It’s wiped out everything good and bad! Somethings telling me don’t have it and something else is saying but what if? Any advice is greatly appreciated